Real Contractions-disappointments

I have experienced real contractions and go in and out the hospital, well in fact still having the real contractions. After I am there for a little they do slow down, and my water still has not broke. The only thing that did help me become further dilated was walking. But because I am not 39 weeks they will not have me stay at the hospital and walk. Just means I have to go home and walk. Even though it is a little disappointing, but I will just focus on the positive. This means I can walk around my home or outside, sleep on my own bed, still on my own furniture, and not have to pay for more food, because we have food in our home. I have learned that even though this is my second boy that the labor process is different. I did not have braxton hicks or real contractions until after my water broke, and that was just a small leak. Hopefully, by my next appointment which is Tuesday and by then I will be 38 weeks. I will be enough dilated that they will think it is best that I stay until this baby comes, but it is all in God's hands. 

So all you mothers out their take heart, one day you will have your baby, and those hospital trips were worth it because you got to confirm that your baby is at least still very healthy. Your baby will come but it is in God's time and not our own. Have blessed day.

GMO's

Why is it people focus too much time and energy on things. Yes I do understand that they may cause cancer, and other horrible things. Did you know that the very air you breathe, and the water you drink (yes even filtered of both) can cause those very same things. Guess what ten years from now those supposed certified organic and safe you will discover were not actually as safe as you claim. Certified organic is just a joke, I am sorry but do research, they still can use pesticide and preservatives they just have to be what the FDA approves. So if you want to be truly healthy, than grow your own food, in a bubble, with water you filtered upon filtered. Then again, if you rid your body of all those nasties all together, you will up getting more sick, because you will lose all your bodies antibodies to fight it. Please if you want to not eat those foods than that is your choice, just please stop trying to force that knowledge down my throat. Choose what you want to eat and allow your family too eat. Because as I stated earlier, what you think is healthy food may not actually be healthy food. There are only a few absolute truths, and that is the God is truth, and loves us all. Two nothing they say is healthy here on earth is actually 100% healthy for you. Three do not follow or believe what others are telling, you most research yourself, and decide for yourself, what is worth the risk and what is not. For in the end it is your body. Have a blessed night.

4 weeks to go

I have less than a month and my bundle of joy is due to show his face in this world. I am so excited and nervous. Yet I am so glad that my husband and I are one with God, and becoming more and more one as a couple and family. Without that we would be a fading memory, with another child torn between two families, desperately hurting, searching what he did wrong, or how he can get his mom and dad back together again. I am also glad that we are gaining a better understanding with how to discipline our son. Yes it is trial and error, no I am not saying we made perfect choices at times, but we apologized to him, and are learning from those mistakes, and learning better ways that work for him. Parents job is help raise them to learn consequences for their actions, respect others, especially those in authority or are older than they are. Our duty is to basically help them be well rounded individual that will make wise choices. It saddens me with how little parents are willing to discipline their children properly; because they believe in one method that is not actually working, or they do not care, or they think they can make their own choices. Which is crazy because they first have to be taught how to make proper choices, that is something that is learned, no child is born with that ability to make proper choices.

5 weeks to go

So the count down has begun. I only have a few weeks left until I am due, and in less than a week I could safely give birth to my son anytime till my actual due date. I am excited yet nervous as I was with the birth of my first son yet for different reasons. I am so thankful that this time my husband and I seem to be on the same page with most things, and if not we are working together through all things.
We are trying to figure out what to do with my son once I am in labor till his grandma can come and get him. Seeing as how it already takes about 45 mins to drive to the hospital from our home, if we had to drop him off that would be at least an extra hour added on if not more than that. That is too much time in my opinion from the point I am beginning labor till I actually get the hospital. I know that we will get through this with God's help and find a place from my son to stay till the grandparents can get him. We also trying to figure out where to put our new addition to the family. We are still waiting to get to a 3 bedroom, it will happen in God's time and not our own. Just cannot wait to till the inspection so at least I can set-up my husband and I's bedroom for our new son to come.
On a different note, my son is about to get his glasses and it crazy to me that he will have to wear them even if occasionally since he is only four years old. I am sure however since mommy and daddy wear glasses he will want to follow through with wearing them as well. Hopefully the frames he choose fit him as it seemed they did when he tried them on.

6 weeks to go

I cannot believe it, my time is almost up for being pregnant with my second son. I am excited and nervous. I cannot wait to see him. So much needs to be done but yet I do not want to set out too much because their is not the room or the space to make it look nice. Since where we live we have quarterly inspections I know we are due for one this month. I will just wait until after the inspection to set-up what I can for our son to come. We are waiting to get into a bigger apartment. Though I know it will happen in the time it is supposed to. Would it be more convenient if we already had a bigger place yes, but it will all work out. I know that one day we will finally have a place that we own and not have to worry about keeping our place clean or reminding of repairs that should have been done months ago. On that note how many times should you have to remind them? I let it go unless it is essential to be done. Well I am not worried what is to be fixed will be fixed. It is all in God's capable hands and not my own.

Life in the eyes of a four year old

Oh so many days I wish I could read my sons mind just to know exactly what he is trying to say on the times that he uses my jargon aka gibberish than actual words. However I just enjoy his imagination, and what he can remember along with what he comes up with.
My son can quote his favorite parts of his favorite movie and also act out the part how the character plays out that he is portraying. 
He will also have his cars talk and make up games to play while he is using my web cam for a limited time. He makes up so many different things oh if I had the time to describe them all that I have seen him do. I am so proud of how he has grown in speech and imagination.
I am so glad that despite how mostly our neighbor kids treat him, he does not let that effect him and he will still give try to play with them. I hope that their unkind ways and words never effect him, and he will always try to kind and generous towards others.
I just love how if he hears or sees someone upset he will have go and try to help them.
My hope and prayer is he will make friends and be just as kind and silly to his brother (who is due less than two months away) as he is to other children and babies. Lastly that others would see him for who he is and not his disabilities, just as any other child or adult. They have so much to offer to this world do not write them off just because they look, sound or act differently than you. God created them to be that way for a reason.

God can answer your prayers

I thank the lord, that he has answered my prayers.  Yes there are still unanswered prayers, put it is not time for them to be answered yet.  Just keep the patience, and trust in the lord, he can do anything, and is always waiting, and loving you no matter what you have done, what path you have taken.  God can and will deliver you out of any situation.

God has healed my husband of his anger issues, he is a completely changed man.  He is truly living for God, and allowing him to lead, rather than trying to trudge through life on his own. He is finally being a living Godly example to our son, and all those he sees through his work.  Thank you lord that he living for you and you alone.

God has gave me direction, I was struggling with what God wanted me to do, and having a Godly purpose in the life.  God has answered my prayers, and put me back in school to be a preschool teacher.  Though this is tough, I stand firm on the foundation of God. That he will provide for my family financially, that we will not be burdened with finical debt for me going back to school. That God will open the doors for me to have the job that he has called me to be. Through that job I will bring many souls back into the house of God.

When we were extremely in debt God opened the door for us to move into our home that is based upon our finances. God came in just in time, and provided for us, he has many times over. Though our credit is high currently, God is in control. I no longer worry about how we are going to pay any of our bills, or needs for our home. For they are all already bought and paid for through the blood of Jesus Christ.  I trust that God will heal our credit card debt.  God will provide a bigger, and better vehicle, that we desperately need. God will open doors for my husband and myself, for our job directions.  God will help our son, to be the little man he has called him to be. Our son will no longer need an IEP through school. 

God has always will provide, and will answer our heart felt prayers. Thank you lord for all that you have done, in my life, and in my families life.  May we as we go throughout this Thanksgiving day turn back to you lord, and keep our focus on you.  Just be so thankful for all that you done and provided.

I am most thankful for God's forgiveness and I now, and forever stay a true follower of him.  I am also most thankful for my husband, son, and all of our combined family, and friends.  Yes the things of life I do enjoy, but truly I enjoy time with family and friends the most.
What are things that you are most thankful for?